Phone

Yesterday, I worked pretty late. It is appraisal time at work and I have to go over the annual review with each of my pharmacy managers. Well, due to some scheduling issues, I had to rearrange some times yesterday, which left me about an hour in the late afternoon before anyone came in.

I have a company vehicle, and it accumulates all my work stuff in my trunk. So during this hour, I took out all of the paperwork I no longer needed. I also have a phone in my trunk.....one of those old, heavy, rotary dial phones.

Awhile ago, my dad gave it to me. He said since we had cordless, it was always good to have a regular phone in the house. Plus, he thought Kealie might enjoy playing with it. :) Well, it has been in my trunk because it is so heavy and old. When I saw it yesterday, it reminded me of when my grandfather passed away. My dad had one of my grandfather's phones and he wouldn't get rid of it because it had belonged to his father. I felt the same emotion yesterday. It is still in my trunk. I don't know if I'll be able to get rid of it.

I walked back inside to work and my friend Jodi was leaving for the day. She said bye, and as I said bye my voice cracked.....she knew something was wrong, and turned right back around. I don't know why, but that phone triggered such a strong emotion for me, I just cried and cried.

My mom used to tell me that you cry in order to make room for more. Your body can only handle so much, so you cry to let it out and enable your body and mind to prepare for more. Pretty smart, that mom of mine.

My sister Patty texted me last evening that her and Tom took him fish tails (not REAL fish tails) for dinner and he ate them AND enjoyed watching the hockey game. So he had a good day yesterday, and that is good to hear. :)

For anyone reading, thank you for your kind comments and thoughts and prayers. I was hesitant to share this because I use writing as a way to express my emotions, but at the same time, there are days where I want people to know what is happening, so I thought a central place for updates may be best.

If nothing else, if this gets someone out of the tanning bed or into some SPF, then I will be happy. :)