Viewing

I am getting ready for the viewing. I am so happy I am going to get to see him but on the other hand I am dreading Saturday when I will never see him again. I miss him so much. I knew losing him was going to be hard, but I never imagined the grief I would be experiencing.

The support of family and friends has been overwhelming. Their support and generosity and giving of themselves has meant so much to all of us.

I find myself talking to him. I ran to the mall to pick up something for mom, and when I walked outside, it was sunny. I looked up and said, "Hi Dad. Are you taking care of things up there?" A passerby probably thought I was crazy but it is how I deal. I've been talking to him a lot since Monday.

I will see him in about 4 hours. I am so lucky to have so much support around me. Dad would be yelling at everyone for causing such a fuss. :)